Today's the Day

So today I'm having my face operation, well, I'm leaving in a moment in fact. I didn't know what to wear as a hospital patient, so I through on baggy jeans, my Mighty Boosh tee (that Ashley gave me) and my trusty lapis (Super Man blue) zip up. Then I threw a white neckerchief over it and my fingerless grey gloves.

So, with an iPod in one pocket and a lucky charm in her hand, Sophie Brown is roaring and ready to go!

I've had a few texts from friends saying Good Luck, as Sam continuously decides to point out, everything will go fine so I don't need the Good Luck, but he still said it! Seriously, some people are so nice.

I feel like an idiot about the Andrew situation, not sure if I should text him, tell him I'm sorry, that I was a retard, that I let my feeling fuel my hateful words. Would that make me seem weak? Because right now, I merely think of him and I whisper "I'm Sorry" to myself. Me, all alone. Again...

Kindest Regards,

A Very Nervous,

Stripes xy

I'll Love You Forever

Today, I bought an item. Not just any old item, an item that i will have probably forever. I've never bought anything of it's type before, and I never thought I would at the age of just 15.5 years old. Today, for £30, I bought: A Proper Painting.

Now, I liked the photograph entitled Escalier De La Butte, but that cost £150. However, I saw a painting, higher than any other painting, and it was called New York Skyline, it was only £30 and I loved it with every inch of my freshly injured heart. (I can't be bothered to bore you all with the details of how this happened.)

Thinking about it, maybe I bought it because I know it will never hurt me in the way I've been hurt. When I look at this painting, I instantly feel hopeful. Hopeful that one day, I may travel abroad all the way to America... The place where I dreamt of becoming an author, finding love and living happily. I dream of other places now, but as a child, it was always America I dreamt of as being a brighter tomorrow.

Kindest Regards,

A Very Simple,

Stripes xy

PostScript: Oh, and to anybody that remembered, I'm having my weird jaw operation (http://turnipface.blogspot.com/2009/05/well-its-different.html) on Monday 22nd (yes, that's the day after Father's Day) and trust me, I'm petrified and not at all excited!

Who Said What?

It's gone! What's gone? The baby. I lost her. I know how that feels. Then give me sympathy! I deserve sympathy as well! I lost one too! Why did you lose yours? No idea. You? I smoked. Was it still born? No. Deformed. Did you lose it naturally? Not really. Abortion? Abortion. Abortion! Yes. I lost a child. If I had her deformed I would've been happy. Rather deformed than dead when it comes to babies. Do you disapprove of me? Of course. Why? Abortions are allowed aren't they? Not morally. I don't want to bring a baby into this world with deformities. Why? Scared it will grow a bigger personality than you? How would it do that? Bullying builds character. I see you were never bullied. Yes I was. Why? What could you possibly be bullied for? I was deformed.

Kindest Regards,

A Playful but Twisted,

Stripes xy

Homosexual Lust

Okay... so today I had my first ever GCSE (it was Biology). I'm a tad bummed as I learnt all about Mitosis, Meiosis and Cystic Fibrosis. Did any of these topic actually come up in the exam? Nope. I'm well peeved!

Anyway, onto better news. I watched Velvet Goldmine today and let me tell you now, it completely quenched my need for gay action! Well... for now anyway. Not only did the cast have an amazingly hot cast (like loads of gay films - see below for examples), but the film also was based around music (one of the few magic words in life) and featured nudity (which is seriously needed in films). It wasn't like a porno... It was perfect! Plus Placebo were in it! I love Brian Molko, seriously!

I need more films with gay scenes (or at least homosexual undertones). I only have Brokeback Mountain (featuring Jake Gyllenhaal) and History Boys (featuring Domonic Cooper), I'm going to buy Velvet Goldmine (featuring Ewan McGreggor) though... I need it! Any suggestions for other films featuring homo activity, please leave a comment!

Kindest Regards,

A Loved Up,

Stripes xy

Conversation Clean Out

Okay, so below are six conversations that popped in my head for no random reason. I wish to feature them in my writing at some point, but at the moment the characters have no name. Yet in my head, these conversations happen between the same two people: a boy and a girl. Feel free to comment suggestions on how could improve them, or just leave comment telling me which one is your favourite!

xx: Is it possible to be even more appreciative and happy right now?
xy: Well, I suppose if you'd been blind your whole entire life and then all of a sudden your eyes open and you see this, then maybe yes.
xx: Gee, why didn't i think of that?
xy: Because you're not an arsehole.

xy: Can I kiss you?
xx: No.
xy: Why not?
xx: Because that's not scripted in my movie.
xy: What if it's in mine?
xx: Then we have a problem.
xy: Rock Paper Scissors?
[silence]
xx: Best out of three.

xy: Cows are vegetarian.
xx: Yeah...
xy: All vegetarians have four stomachs.
xx: Are you calling all vegetarians cows?
xy: Moo!
xx: I'm offended.
xy: I'm a cow.
xx: Are you a vegetarian?
xy: Are you calling all vegetarians cows?
xx: Are you a vegetarian?
xy: Yes Miss.

xx: Is that spunk on the bed?
xy: Yeah. It's yours though?
xx: What?!
xy: Yeah... Sperm from your penis.
xx: I don't have one...
xy: Yeah you do.
xx: Even if I did, how would you know anyway?
xy: Because I sucked it.
xx: Charming...
xy: That's Prince Charming to you.

xy: You know what, sometimes I wish I was smarter just so I could have a proper conversation with you!
xx: But I like you just the way you are...
xy: No you don't. You just like who you think I am.
xx: Please. Don't go...
xy: I have to.
xx: Stay!
[silence]
xy: Okay.

xy: What are you thinking?
xx: That sex is like having a bath.
xy: It makes you feel clean?
xx: No... You don't want one, so you postpone it, but when you're having it, you love it.
xy: Why are you thinking about sex Young Lady?
xx: Because you're here.
xy: Bath time?

Kindest Regards,

An Abnormal,

Stripes xy

Advantages of Vegetarianism

This post is because of something that happened dinner time in school. I was sat with a few of my friends, and our conversation ended up being about Vegetarianism. Now, as I was the only Veggie there, I was the only person defending, and there were around four other people there. It was a friendly conversation and there was no harm intended, but I couldn't help feeling a tiny bit bullied. So here I have a few points from reliable sources (not including Wikipedia) about vegetarianism and its advantages.

• The Vegetarian Society said that 117 year old Canadian Marie-Louise Febronie Meilleur was living proof of the benefits of being a vegetarian. Current research backs this up ; lifelong vegetarians visit hospital 22% less often than meat eaters and when confined to hospital, spend a shorter time there.


• Vegetarians have more energy that lasts all day.


• Somebody in Britain becomes vegetarian every two minutes. The average meat eater is responsible for the deaths of approximately 760 chickens, 46 Turkeys, 29 Sheep, 20 pigs, 15 ducks, 7 rabbits, 5 cows and more than 1000 fish.


• They have healthier looking skin.


• People may not understand your choice, but most will support, appreciate and respect you for it.


• If you are an animal lover or/and concerned about the environment your behavior should be congruent with your beliefs. It feels good to walk your talk.


• Studies have shown that vegetarians often have lower incidence of coronary artery disease, hypertension, obesity and some forms of cancer. A vegetarian diet tends to be lower in total fat, and vegetarians tend to eat proportionally more polyunsaturated fat to saturated fat compared with non-vegetarians. (Animal products are the major sources of dietary saturated fat).


• Allergic symptoms to specific foods are more easily noticed.


• You don't need to eat meat. A vegetarian diet, like a non-vegetarian diet, can be very healthy, or it can be extremely unhealthy. But eating meat is generally considered unhealthy, especially when you eat a lot of it. It has been shown that you can significantly reduce your risk of many diseases by avoiding meat. Vegetarians also live about 6-10 years longer than meat eaters on average, but this may be at least partially due to other lifestyle choices that vegetarians are likely to make (e.g., exercise). Bottom line, if you reduce or eliminate meat from your diet, you are likely to experience at least some health benefits, as long as you don't replace all the meat you used to eat with junk food.


• At the beginning of 2000, there were 59.2 million people living in the United Kingdom, 7% (over 4 Million) are Vegetarians.


• One vegetarian is estimated to save the lives of 100 animals per year.

All of these little facts and figures leave me feeling a lot better about myslef. I am free from the subconcious guilt of eating animals. I feel healthier and proud of my dietry choices. Also, vegetarians are very supporting of each other, it's a nice litte, animal friendly community.

A Vegetarian xy

You Have His Eyes...

(This isn't about pregnancy, birth, babies or anything like that...)

Remember that Rhys guy I mentioned a few times before? The gay guy that I really liked, and still do like even though I constantly lie to myself, trying to force myself to think that I don't? Well now there's a female equivalent, just on the television instead.

There's a girl on Britain's Next Top Model (who I seriously love) and she looks, to me, like a spitting image of Rhys. She is so pretty, she seriously is the pinnacle of beauty in my eyes. Her name's Jade McSorley, and she's my favourite!

She is quirky. She is amazingly lovely. She's a great model. She names Alexa Chung as her style icon which is totally ace! She has huge glasses. She's a vegetarian. Seriously... I love her to little bits and pieces!

Kindest Regards,

A Very Jealous,

Stripes xy

PostScript: Why can't I be that pretty?